Alright so go ahead and spank me, I know it's been awhile since I've posted. I have just been busy with work and mind fucking myself for the last week. Possibly better put, jumping on the emotional rollercoaster and just giving my mind a free ride to do whatever it chooses to do, definitely not a very wise thing to do...
Damn it why am I finding this so difficult to write? It's not that I have a mind blockat this moment it is running hundred miles an hour. It's just that everything I have written and deleted thus far just doesn't feel right.... Maybe I shoudl just give up and either "A" quit posting all together, or "B" stop proof reading what has been already written and just let it be... Well if I did choose to do "A" then why havea blog at all... So I guess the only true option is "B", now if I could just find that zone and do that *sigh*.
Well that doesn't look as if it's going to happen either, for at this moment I think I am in the corkscrew of that ride... Twisted and entwined thoughts are still running amuck, Well this ever end? Why am I doing this to myself? I was in a great place until...... Bingo, there it is.... I was in a great place until I was once again informed " I was a great friend and I don't wish to lose that". The most dreded words a single guy can ever hear. Granted I don't wish to lose the friendship that has been built, but hasn't it been written the best lovers start off as friends?!?!??! If that holds so much truth where the hell is the line?
Fuck it all anyways.... I am once again back to an all so familuar place; baffled, confused and alone. So now it's time to say those simplistic words, " It just is". Take a deep breath and look at the otherside of the coin, look for the blessings (no matter how difficult it may be at this time).
4 comments:
Hey Rick, its Deena. I just watched a movie this weekend called Just Friends, you need to watch it. Its a funny movie but I think that you will find a lot of things that you can relate to in it. Just a thought. Hope everything else is going ok for you.
Thank you Deena, I am snagging that movie right now :) ... I'll let you know what I think of it... As for everything else, it's going well, don't want to say great but it is going good.
I popped in to say thanks for your comment, and I gotta say the "value you more as a friend" line truly sucks. Im sorry, honey! I hope you get your voice back soon.
Thank you Tildy for understanding :) ... And I sure hope you don't mind that I have added you in my links.
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