New Years Eve Day

   God, I so need to stop this!!!!!!!! Couldn’t sleep at all last night, but then again who the f* do I think I am fooling? All I am truly doing at this moment is tearing myself apart. Reminiscing upon what once was, that felt so true and real. Wishing for those times to be back, yet realistically knowing those days had come to pass.

   So with the New Year approaching like in a few more hours. There is no better time for change. My only wish for this coming year is that I am able to enter it with a truly open mind. With no expectations and/or any predetermined, grandiose illusions of what may or may not take place within this coming year. Only then, I may be more receptive of something new and true.